How?

It is strange, believing in something that is so hard to prove. We walk upon a path with the hope that this day will lead us to a salvation when our path finishes. We are taught literature and listen to songs which ask the question: how do we know?  

How do we? 

I can't help but think of a song by the Neighborhood simply titled How. In the song, the lyricist states: "How could you question God's existence when you question God himself? Why would you ask for God's assistance if you wouldn't take the help?" This is sings true to me. Yet it is much more than that. Where does one go after their path truly finishes? Is it that we do go to the salvation when we were good on earth, and damnation when we were bad,and purgatory because we forgot to pray every now and again? 

These are questions that truly do hunt my thoughts, as I stay awake late a night with a bad case of insomnia. They rest there in the back of my mind, to catch me off guard in a choke hold.  

Friendship

Lately, now that the election is near, I have been showing more of my political side. But being the age that I am, none of my friends seem to even care what I have to say. But it is not just that is bothering me. What really makes what we call "friendship" nowadays? For me, it seems that the fact that I am social awkward, I feel like I am stuck with the so called "friends" that I have. Do not get me wrong. I love a lot of people that I call friends. But some, lately, have been pushing a button. It has really had me questioning whether my relationship with others was a healthy one. And really question my definition of "friendship". I have come to a conclusion, that some of the friendships that I had was just not ever going to work out.

To be honest, I believe that I was careless with my choice of friends, and even how much emotion was put in the relationships. But, the only really certain  thing that I have really come to realize about myself is that I don't need people to point at the "letter" that is on my chest, when they have theirs plain in sight. What good does it do to show hypocrisy? Or believe and act as if you are a saint, when you have done actions that make you just as human as I am. I wear a symbolic "veil"  on my face, and I see yours, and theirs. Why must those who I call "friend" call me out on mine?

Book Review: Sun Also Risies

Hello out there, so this is my first book review. Yay! The Sun Also Rises is by Ernest Hemingway, which helped Hemingway to establish to become on of the greatest writers of the twentieth century. But is the book really worth reading? I had to read it for a summer assignment, so I did not have much of a choice. If you are going to the bookstore to pick up a good read, I recommend it not be The Sun Also Rises. 

The book ends right where it begins, with Jacob (Jake) Barnes and Lady Brett Ashley in this weird friendship that goes no where throughout the whole book. The book follows Jake and Brett in post World War 1 era. It is obvious that Jake is in love with Brett, as shown in a taxi ride they had at the beginning of the book.The story went from Jake seemingly in a happy friendship with Robert Cohn, who in my mind is a stalker and in love with Brett, to hating Robert for multiple reasons. Brett was engaged to be married to Mike, but broke it off to be with a younger bull fighter, named Romero. Which she then sends away later in the story.

The book is easy to follow, but at times very confusing.The book seems like it would be a more like able if Robert was the main character, or if the story followed Robert. The story with Jake was not that enjoyable to read, unless you count the more actionish parts of the book which was not that much. The only ones I could think of is the part where Jake was beat up by Robert, and the bull fights. There were also some arguments that were really engaging to read about, most of which are between Mike and Robert about Robert's obsession with Brett. To be honest the whole book revolved around Brett. And her happiness.
Then there was this whole part about the hotel manager who loves Jake, but then stops talking to him.

All in all though, the rate I give this book is between going to get it from the library, to not getting it at all. Hey also, check out my video on it as well! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0khJz6yjn0w

Why hello there..

My, have you stumbled upon this? I am a little embarrassed, I didn't even straight up the place. This is basically where I want to compose my thoughts for the world to see. It is very out there, and I just want to just clarify I few things I kind say in some vlogs. I have been meaning to do this for awhile, because I feel like what I say in my vlogs are really... Not that explained... Well at least. So after each vlog there will be a link that will take you to a post. That will probably explain things more. Also if I am too lazy to pick up a camera I just I will just do a blog instead of a vlog.